Seems like I'm having a major case of General Discourse Polarization Fatigue.
I'm getting so tired of tribalism, pearl clutching, moral superiority olympics, pissing contests and people talking past each other on pretty much any topic relevant to today, to the point where honest and healthy conversation is becoming almost impossible, it literally affects my mental well-being.
Am I becoming a filthy centrist?
Replying to @drq@mastodon.ml
@drq sadly I don't necessarily think it is about becoming a filthy centrist at all, because at the end of the day "centrists" is just another label that our tribal brain happily accepts. I at some point noticed that I almost never read "that side" or "this side" in English speaking media anymore, it now always seems to be "far this" and "far that" as if anything in between doesn't exist... but it does, always had and will be. Avoiding this temptation of categorization for the sake of our jungle brain energy efficiency always will be a struggle. If I understand correctly, our brains are wired to quickly categorize objects of dangerous/not dangerous, and because it is an energy intense process we avoid re-evaluation and judge not each action but each individual. And on top of that we have only so much RAM and can't store information on all the people we see. So we do it only for the most noisy ones and the most noisy ones tend to be the most extreme (on any given spectrum)
Replying to @Lemonid@mastodon.ml
@drq like, noticing that on some topic or some person I have a formed opinion that does not seems to change or has no visible roots and then doing research again trying best not to be pre-judgemental is exhausting because it is a road with no end in sight, in fact it isn't even a road it is a freaking net of endless intersections.
At times I really really want to just not care about anything of it; to form a *believe* and go with that believe without any revaluation no matter how bonkers it is in relation to reality because I see that many people do exactly that without even realizing it and they are... happier than I? And isn't that the point? That knowledge... it is a curse, because at the end of the day I don't *truly* believe in almost anything except physics... and I am but at those. 