Exactly. Those thoughts and language are not for discussion, even in a diary. Speak to no one about urges of violence. Figure it out on your own and definitely not in writing format. Involve no one else. Keep it to yourself. Do not seek a therapist for this.
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Exactly. Those thoughts are not for public discourse. Speak to no one about urges of violence. Figure it out on your own. Involve no one else.