Go read Albert Camus. Next step is Absurdism.
I know work and even life can feel like soul crushing and it is but one must still imagine sysphys happy or something…
Growing up I got to interact with some kind ppl, knew some monsters up close and a lot of indifferent ppl. Now I just remember kindness of others. Maybe humanity has a hope left or maybe it doesn’t. But for those who were kind to me I try and return back to the world what I got from them.